for adrenaline?

for cheap thrills?

for fun?



I want something like A Clockwork Orange, except without the violence and rape.

I want something like SLC Punk!, except without all the illegal activities.

I want something like Fight Club, except without all the fighting.

I want something like Requiem for a Dream, except without all the drugs.

and also my girlfriend broke up with me.
I won't go into it.
but basically, something that brought fun into my life, love, has left.



so where am I now?
chasing cheap thrills.


so give me some advice.
for some legal fun.


I have a few ideas, but need to gather more.
I need some sort of excitement and change from the routine of school and depression.

my friend and I are going to get out and go do stupid, fun things.

I love partying and raves, but I want something that's free and something I can go do frequently...

For the very few of you who don't know, the King of Pop died



)))))))))))))))))))))),:

So it's been a really really really long time since I've done anything at all on this account.


and lots of stuff has been happening lately!

I recently finished COMPLETELY cleaning and organizing my room, so it makes everything so much easier!

Since I've cleaned it, I can go through all my drawings in a pinch (they're finally all in one place)

Also since I've finished my room, it isn't constantly looming on me so now I have time to draw and such!

So, I'm going to go through all my drawings, and fix them up all pretty-like, and then I'm going to create a new DeviantArt account to start brand new!

Just letting everyone know now, so that when I create my new account in a few weeks maybe, you'll be ready to re add me if you want



Thanks
<3
becca

why not?




What would you do if...
I cried:
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I died:
I was afraid:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I were hospitalized:
I ran away:
I got in a fight and you were there:

What do you think about my?...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Friends:

Would You?...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, No matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash If i needed it:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Love me for who I am:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Are we close?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable?
[18] How long have you known me?
[19] Describe me in one word:
[20] What was your first impression?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now?
[22] What do you think my weakness is?
[23] Do you think I'll get married?
[24] What about me makes you happy?
[25] What about me makes you sad?
[26] What reminds you of me?
[27] What's something you would change about me?
[28] How well do you know me?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30] Do you think I would kill someone?
[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

last time I updated was in July.
well, I haven't done anything productive in. just about ever.
but I might be getting to being productive soon?
don't count on it though.
this is all of my effort.
here.




RICH KID
[ ] You go tanning.
[ ] You own something from Coach
[ ] You have over 10 pairs of different jeans
[ ] You own something from Prada
[ ] Usually when you ask your mom for money she gives it to you
[x] You like going to the mall
[x] You own an iPod / MP3 player
[ ] you love Starbucks (not LOVE. but it's pretty awesome)
[ ] You have been called a brat
[ ] You have tons of shoes
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale
[ ] You have more than one house

GOTHIC
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors
[x] You have thought about death
[ ] You've attempted suicide
[ ] You wear chains (not a lot)
[x] You like heavy metal
[x] You've shopped at Hot Topic
[ ] You have worn black lipstick (oh shit. I never actually have. I have black lipstick though.
[x] Your hair was / is dark
[ ] You dislike preps
[x] You have / want piercings
[x] You're going to / or have a tattoo (probably)


PUNK
[ ] You can skateboard
[x] You wear plaid
[x] You like Converse
[ ] You hate MTV
[x] You have / had / want / wanted blue, red, purple, or green hair
[ ] You dislike pink
[ ] You hate preps
[x] You wear / have worn skateboarding shoes
[ ] Shop at Pac Sun



GEEK
[x] You love the computer
[x] You like Star Wars
[x] You are supposed to / wore / wear glasses / contacts
[x] You get straight A's
[x] You like reading
[x] You were / are in a band
[ ] You have a curfew
[ ] You always do your homework
[x] You never miss school unless you're sick

EMO
[x] You've been depressed
[ ] You have black-rimmed glasses (red actually.)
[ ] You like the band Thursday
[ ] You cry easily
[ ] You like emo music
[x] You hate being called emo
[ ] You keep a journal / diary [This counts..] (not really. it's filled with happy shit anyway)
[x] You have written a sad poem
[ ] You have / had a sad MySpace layout
[ ] You think emo kids are hot (meh, it really depends)

GHETTO / GANGSTA
[ ] You like rap
[ ] You are in a gang (Fuck ya, yo)
[ ] You wear rubber bands in your pants
[ ] You have had a freestyle battle
[ ] You have worn converse with the tongue flipped out

HARDCORE
[x] You like loud music
[x] You love the Ninja Turtles
[ ] You never walk anywhere
[x] You wear slip-on shoes
[ ] You love Normal Jeans
[x] You wear band t-shirts (RUSH)
[ ] You love to 'hardcore' dance (haha!!!)
[x] Your hair has been dyed more than one color
[x] You wear blue jeans (not as much as black/red/dark jeans.)

PREP
[ ] You love The OC
[ ] You have a tiny dog (GROSS.)
[x] Your usual outfits consist of bright or cheery colors. (RAINBOWS!! ) it's either bright or dark.
[ ] You LOVE buying shoes
[ ] You shop at AE, HOLLISTER, A&F
[x] You love / like to shop
[x] You like jeans (who the fuck doesn't?)
[ ] You like Paris Hilton
[ ] Getting your nails done is a fun thing
[ ] You wear big sunglasses (I have them - but don't wear them that much seeing as I have pimp ass glasses.)

Athletic
[ ] You watch the Super Bowl
[ ] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes
[ ] You collect your jerseys
[ ] You have / have had a special shelf for trophies and awards
[ ] You have / had posters or plaques of famous athletes
[ ] Your garage / shed consists of sports equipment
[ ] You have a space in your room for awards and / or plaques
[ ] You have a large amount of medals
[x] You belong / belonged to a school team
[ ] You are going to / have gone to a sports summer camp
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey
[ ] You are / were on a select team


Goth
[ ] Smoked
[ ] Drank alcohol
[X] Cried when someone died (uhm. that's a normal occurrence)
[ ] Been drunk
[ ] Had sex (goths have sex?)
[x] Been to a concert
[x] Been verbally/sexually harassed
[x] Verbally/sexually harassed somebody
[x] Felt someone up and/or been felt up
[x] Laughed so hard something came out of your nose (once again -gothic?)
[ ] Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before
[x] Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] Been to formal/prom
[x] Cried at school.
[x] Gotten lost in a department store
[ ] Went streaking
[ ] Given or gotten a lap dance
[x] Had someone of the opposite sex in your room
[x] Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over
[x] Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house (group - not alone)
[ ] Kissed a stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x] Went scuba diving (gothic?)
[x] Driven a car (gothic?)
[x] Gotten an x-ray (gothic?)
[ ] Hit by a car
[x] Had a party
[ ] Done serious drugs
[ ] Played strip poker/darts
[ ] Got paid to strip for someone
[ ] Ran away from home
[ ] Broken a bone
[x] Eaten sushi
[ ] Bought porn
[ ] Watched porn (not seriously)
[ ] Made porn
[x] Had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Been in love
[x] French kissed
[x] Laughed so hard you cried
[x] Cried yourself to sleep
[x] Laughed yourself to sleep
[ ] Stabbed yourself
[x] Shot a gun
[x] Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day
[x] Been online for 9 consecutive hours
[x] Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours
[x] Watched an animal die
[ ] Watched a person die
[x] Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person
[x] Pranked somebody
[ ] Put somebody in the hospital
[ ] Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out (kind of :/)
[x] Kissed somebody of the same sex
[x] Dressed punk
[x] Dressed goth
[x] Dressed preppy
[ ] Been to a motocross race
[x] Avoided somebody
[x] Been stalked
[ ] Stalked someone
[ ] Met a celebrity (some pretty famous people - yah. not a celeb tho)
[x] Played an instrument
[x] Ridden a horse
[ ] Cut yourself
[ ] Bungee jumped
[ ] Ding dong ditched somebody
[x] Been to a wild party
[ ] Been caught stealing something
[x] Kicked/punched a guy in the balls
[ ] Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend
[ ] Gone out with your friend's crush
[ ] Got arrested
[ ] Been pregnant
[x] Baby sat
[x] Been to another country (4 others)
[ ] Started your house on fire
[x] Had an encounter with a ghost (kind of)
[ ] Donated your hair to cancer patients
[x] Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by
[x] Cried over a member of the opposite sex
[x] Had Boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months
[x] Sat on your butt all day
[ ] Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself
[x] Had a job
[ ] Gotten cut from a sports team
[ ] Been called a whore
[x] Danced like a whore (FUN FUN)
[x] Been told you resemble a 'celebrity'
[ ] Been in a car accident
[x] Been told you have beautiful eyes
[x] Been told you have beautiful hair
[ ] Raped somebody
[x] Danced in the rain
[x] Been rejected
[ ] Left a restaurant without paying
[x] Punched someone/slapped someone in the face
[ ] Been raped

ANOREXIA :
[ ] you have dry skin.
[ ] you eat 1 meal a day.
[ ] you're very weak.
[ ] you hate yourself.
[ ] you starve yourself.
[x] you have low self esteem. (most/some of the time)
[ ] you use laxatives.
[x] you need to be more skinny.
[ ] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat.
[ ] people think you are too skinny.
Total: 2

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER) :
[x] your mind is all over the place.
[ ] you are hyper most of the time.
[ ] you barely pay attention to anything.
[ ] you can't cooperate well.
[ ] you talk all the time.
[ ] you need attention 24/7.
Total: 1

BIPOLAR DISORDER :
[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[ ] you are very irritable.
[ ] you are anti-social.
[x] you have very high self esteem sometimes.
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[ ] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
Total: 2

BULIMIA NERVOSA :
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[ ] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[x] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[ ] people think you're way too skinny.
Total: 1

CONDUCT DISORDER :
[ ] you are a bully.
[x] you threaten other people. (people who have it fucking COMING)
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose.
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
Total: 1

DEPRESSION :
[ ] you are always sad.
[ ] you no longer find excitement over the activities you use to love.
[ ] you always find yourself in bed/around the house all day.
[x] you have low self esteem. (kind of)
[ ] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[ ] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] you are failing more then one subject in school
[ ] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
[ ] hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 1

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER) :
[x] you have daily rituals.
[ ] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[ ] you have harmed yourself.
[ ] you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs
[x] you have to check some stuff over again.
Total: 4

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER) :
[ ] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life
[ ] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[ ] you can be/are anti-social.
[ ] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] you have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[ ] You act younger than your age.
Total: 2

SHIZOPHRENIA :
[ ] you often have hallucinations.
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[ ] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness. (sometimes)
[ ] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you are very shy.
[ ] you often talk to yourself. (kinda)
Total: 2

British
[ ] You drink a lot of tea. (green tea)
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell." (that's because I'm Australian)
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] It's football...not soccer.
Total: 2

Australian
[x] You wear flip flops all year. (when I lived thre.)
[x] You call flipflops thongs, not flip flops. (used to.)
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned. (I used to be - I used to be out in the sun all day)
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan. (noooooooo)
[x] You have an australian something. (uh. Father. blood. clothes. art. boomerang )
Total: 7

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[X] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[ ] You have dark hair and dark eye color. (my eyes are light)
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what a Italian horn is.
[ ] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[X] You talk with your hands.
Total: 3

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak spanish or some.
[ ] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr. (OH DEAR LORD. FUCKING BALLS. I hate that)
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 2

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[ ] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[ ] You don't get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 3

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[ ] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have hair everywhere.
[ ] You have/had freckles
[x] Your family get-togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 2

African American
[ ] You say ni#*a/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[X] You know how to shoot a gun.
[X] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[X] You like chicken.
[ ] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You refer to people as 'dawg' or 'homie'.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 3

Asian
[x] You have small/slanty eyes. (I'm single lidded )
[x] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math. (doesn't mean I don't fucking hate it)
[ ] You play/have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese. (most people think I'm part Asian
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 2

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You speak some German.
[ ] You know what Schnitzel is.
[x] You went to pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2.
[ ] You like Limburger cheese.
Total: 4

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[ ] You say eh. A lot.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house. (For like. a couple months - in New Zealand)
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi. (A few times)
Total: 0

French
[x] You enjoy pastry.
[x] You like to walk most places or ride a bus/train, not drive.
[ ] You enjoy wine.
[ ] You're rather rude to those who don't speak your language well
[ ] Love to speak formal French.
[ ] Butter and salt are your favorite condiments.
Total: 2

American
[ ] You hate foriegners.
[ ] You hate non-Christians.
[X] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion. (I dislike somethings about it)
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[x] You shop at walmart. (where kids are always whining, and obese mothers with floral patterned outfits overfeed their kids) ((it's like heaven))
[x] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 3

British: 2
Australian: 7
Italian: 3
Spanish: 2
Russian: 3
Irish: 2
African American: 3
Asian: 2
German: 4
Canadian: 0
French: 2
American: 3


Thank goodness. now I know I'm Australian.
because the whole being born and raised there thing wasn't enough.